"Death shall not part us // It's you I died for."
He loves me! Jesus loves ME! He loves me and desires me so much that He gave everything, even His life to be with me. It doesn't matter what I've done, He doesn't care where I've been, nothing I do can change the depth of His love.
"Your My beloved, lover I'm yours // Death shall not part us // It's you I died for // For better or worse // forever we'll be / My love it unites us, and it binds you to Me // It's a mystery." [ Beloved, by Tenth Avenue North]
It seems so simple, like I should have figured it out by now. We've all heard one of the most quoted verses of the Bible, you know the one..... "For God so loved to World, He gave His only begotten son...." But I have a head time accepting it. My sinful, prideful heart tells me that once I'm good enough, once I've changed these things, then I can spend my life with Him. After I've worked through all these things, then maybe I can experience His love.
But He wants me just as I am. He is seeking me out, and nothing I can do (or don't do for that matter) can bind me to Him, only His love can do that. He wants to romance me, to yearn for me, to fight for me, if only I will let Him. I think of the story of Hosea, whose wife keeps running back to her prostitution, who keeps rejecting his love, but yet he continued to seek her out, to love her, to cherish her. If that's a human example of the Lord's love, how much more does he seek us, love us and cherish us. It gives me shivers to try and imagine it! "For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." [Romans 8:38-39]
And He wants the same for you. He wants to fight for you, to embrace you, to cherish you.
Just as you are.
Not tomorrow, not years down the road, when you might have things figured out.